It’s been a tough few years for me.
I blogged a little bit more about my situation over at Medium earlier today. (Feel free to read, then come back here.)
How have I really gotten where I am? I think it’s through a series of poor decisions based on money, a big dose of fear, a bit of bad luck, and what I thought I really needed to be happy.
But as we all know, money doesn’t buy happiness. Happiness is felt through doing what you love and loving those who love you.
True happiness doesn’t come from impulse shopping, impulse eating, or how many likes your latest post gets on Facebook or Instagram.
For me, true happiness comes from what I love: my husband, my family, my dog, chiefly; but also doing what I love. And for the past several years, I haven’t been doing what I love. No wonder I’ve been dealing with anxiety, weight gain, and so on.
What I love: teaching and mentoring. What I love: Writing and creating. What I love: Genuine conversation. What I love: How social media can bring so much of this together.
Until now, I had all but quit creating, teaching and mentoring. I was working in a stressful agency environment that only exacerbated my anxiety. Sure, I’m organized and communicative, but I hated the agency-client relationship. I wanted to make genuine connections with those I worked with. And let’s face it, that’s hard to do in that kind of workplace.
So now, I move forward, fresh. Money no longer motivates me. I’m no longer led by fear of not being able to pay my debts, or lose my earthly belongings. I still aim to take care of myself and my family, but I have to let the things that truly make me happy guide me.
What do you love? Are you doing it?